I feel bored. I'm not complaining in the least - please don't get me wrong. But I just feel bored. Even traveling to 'new' places, I am feeling an, "I've seen something better" or a "Now what?". SO NOT COOL.
I want to get that excited feeling back. Is it via business and money? I had that...and I essentially had a ton of fun with the money I was making and considered San Diego my play land for a few years. But I wasn't looking to progress or make more sacrifices. I mean I worked hard for more than a few years and didn't see any returns at all, until one day: BOOM. And that boom continued for 4 years.
But now that has faded. I have since more focused on making this money make me money. And investing [I should say losing and losing more slowly with my own portfolio] in the stock game. Stocks are fun, but clearly not with my self managing haha. Thankfully I have some experts working with my main amount.
Enough of number talk though. So I have total freedom right now to do essentially anything I want. I am doing OK still, and don't look to eat caviar, buy yauts (I hate that damn word - every time I F it up), or even a new car. I still have the car I bought in 2009 and love it (others don't but I don't care obviously).
Do what your passion is and the money will follow. Sounds nice, but I call bullshit. If you like sitting on the couch watching TV, good luck. If you love to volunteer, that is great, but again good luck. However there is some truth to it. If you like what you do, you are more apt to be good at it. I get that. Oh shit, my Alexa just essentially farted...maybe time to invest in a new one. I digress apologies.
But I do see it...finding something that you like to do...well, I like to play tennis. I like to drink with friends (and with my gf who doesn't drink - oops). I used to love to travel...but I feel like that bug is out of me now. I do love living in different parts of the world at different times in the year.
I like helping people but especially kids. Yeah I hear you, dude don't volunteer if you are looking for freedom. *At this point I hope that you realize this isn't meant to be read by anyone, and if you've gotten this far, um, either you are sincerely bored, you are laughing at some dude ranting idiotically, or you know me and it's full of judgement (ouch!). Ha. Whatever.
I am not against making money. That is stupid. I do have that feeling of why do I deserve it more than others at times though. And when I was making the most money of my life, I didn't nearly give back the % amount that I did when I was poor. WAIT, hold up. I let some friends borrow a lot of money...some gave it back (with interest), others still owe me after 8 years, 4 years, etc. So in essence that was me helping out but in a different way because time was no longer my commodity to give as it had turned to money. At the same time it was set up to be paid back but with interest. Enough on that.
So I'm here in The Philippines for now. Back to one of my favorite cities Da Nang, Vietnam in about a week. I'm not building it up though. However I think I will find the answers more clearly there. More on this later. My girlfriend is about to come home (to my pinner studio here ha). Ciao
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